Where love thrives
I sing
Where birds don’t fly
I laugh
Where voices have gone
I cry
Where walls protect
I shine
Where darkness falls
I bask
Where the sun is endless
I linger
Forever in your presence
As wings of angel
When rest is needed

I couldn’t tell
All the wrongs
I couldn’t make right
All the injustice
I had to swallow
All the wasted lies
I should have known before
All the curses
I wish I could throw back
All the journeys
I had to learn to accept
All the time gone by
I could never turn back

memories of dad’s chatter
a pair of chopsticks
sounds of mum’s cooking
a silence now
as distance separates us
remembrance
of times and moments
we shared and hoped
a wish
of possible reunion
sent to the God(s)
I know
we will all reach home one day

You plague me like outer-space
No beginning nor end
The little lights
Shining in g’zillions
seem to draw me hope
but are seemingly unreachable
I know the lights will die out
And so will we
But we must shine
While we can
If not to light up the universe
To at least glow one another’s path

When I feel crippled
The stillness
Of burdens
Unbearable to bear
Of crushing breathe
you rob me of life
On words of promises
Fallen on deafness
Where is
the love of hope
the wing of life
Find me
in the deepness of darkness

Left untold
In the hidden crevices
Of your deepest thoughts
Of which you might not even know
Tell the moon
Of your desires
In secret codes of melodies
There it may unravel
The truest sense you will ever find…

Just sometimes
I know not
the horizons
where I could reach
To hold you
To tell you so much
Why my heart aches
Why my tears flow
Hear my cries
The whispers when I pass
Won’t you…

A note, A song
A step, A journey
A life, An experience
A love, An eternity

And memories
We love
And hold close
They will always be
A part of us
In our every moment
Our every thought
As the stars remind us
All under the universe
Is in the core of us
Yesterday
Today
Tomorrow…

To watch you wither
To see darkness
Taking its toil on you
If only
Belief is true, is faithful
That we all be salvaged
When we turn to light
And know all will be good
In time to come

Is a love
On a cloud
With you
Of whisperings
On wings
An expansion
Of the horizon
More
I desire not
Just living
Moments with you

Don’t shoot anymore
Please
Don’t bomb anymore
Please
Don’t war anymore
Please
Give the respect you so deserve
Please
Give the love you so crave
Please
Give the hope we all so need…

A light is blown
The duality
Must tip
To flow
The irrationality
Of life
With the hopes
Come the demons
That will fight
The strength
Of every hero…

I wrap the pain
Can’t decipher
For a moment
If it is yours
Or mine
I close my eyes
To feel your heartbeat again
One that is no longer there

Why you needed to go
But it’s how you went
That broke my heart
Like we never mattered
The words
Turned to dust
Become my only solace
The memories
Faded into grey
Become a reminiscence of a waning promise

Brings a thought of you
In the stillness of dawn
Time seems to freeze
The memories of the heart
I almost live again
Trapped in the yester-warmth
Where everything seemed possible
If only love mattered

Is what the heavens have blessed me with
Destiny
Is what the gods have drawn for me
Life
Is what I have fought for myself
Love
Is what makes it all worthwhile

Its cherished heart
The lost voice
Its endless songs
The lost thoughts
Its battling wits
The lost soul
Its searching steps
The lost love
Its bleeding pain
The founded purpose
Its deafening echoes
Where all is then understood

Smiles with immense joy
Struggles in doubt
Cries in silence
Endures through pain
Holding on in despair
Sees hope in desolation
Rejoices in life
Never giving up
The heart of a mum
Om…

A life
Many tears
Many joys
Too much war
Too little compassion
Listen to the heart
Hear its thoughts
Time is not money
Time is value
Spend it wisely
Spend it on love

Brings the thought of death
Not of wish
But of reality
All will cease to exist
In their own timings
The day begins
A gift of life
A true treasure
Happiness flows through
So let the problems too
Keep them not
And when life ends
There will be much relief…

By time on earth
Our flesh
Crumbles and dies
Still
Our thoughts
Live on endless
Our feelings
Move through eons
Our souls
Journey our struggles
Time again
And again

A night of dreams
One
Of tears and broken dreams
A journey
Walked alone
Of immense grief and sorrow
An intensity
Matched by none
To say
Time heals
Is like water on a drying desert
It’s a desperation
Of hope…

Meant
To love
This life
How much
Must we fight
To capture
Its worth
Where it feels right
Lies the wrong
Where the path leads
Is strewn with fear
Where is courage
When love is the fuel

Your weeping mind
My belief
Your disillusion
My patient love
Your prolonged hesitation
My upbeats
Your cold sores
My promise
Your wavering faith
My depart
Your relief

A lot
The part of you
That belonged to me
The part of us
That used to sing melodies
Of tomorrow and a forever
And now
There’s just me left
To hold
These precious moments
When the stars
Are aligned again
We will meet somehow
Won’t we?

On a cloud
With your love
Over my being
Is how
I bloom
In a nest of warmth
And I know
All will be well
Because of you…

With understanding
Is peaceful
Acceptance
Without understanding
Is challenging…
And it’s the challenges
that make the heart hurt…
despite knowing
It’s all in God’s hands…

Of the room
Reminds
Of the harem
Of a time
Cherished and lost
The vibrations
Which live on
Only but in our hearts
Memoirs
Of days and nights
Of fading glory
Will find their home
Again
only in their souls…

The depth
I am diving in
With you
In sight
Is all but familiar
Yet there
Is where light exists
Where warmth beckons
Where my heart beats
Is long
Not a question
Anymore…

Is a cup of wants
Where the heart yearns
Is a cup of needs
How do I resolve
My endless thoughts
With my fiery emotions
Or subdue my primal urges
with mental awareness
A concoction of poison
where my battles begin
Where is the antidote?

It’s a beautiful reminder
How wonderful life is
Despite all its ups and downs
There is a thread of love
A warm nestle of belonging
Where I rest
Where I recover
For the many journeys to come
I know there is a place
I can call home…

Remember the dollar (literally a dollar)
We shared on kiddie rides
The chilli fish cakes
We got on rare occasions (at Yaohan)
Our gangster bike rides
On ‘Black street’
The running chickens & a fierce rooster
Who attacked us
On our way home from Kindergarten
The Bear and Penguin
Who have followed us for the longest time
Thank you for being there for me
For sheltering me under your wings…

My soul wanders
In search of you
I know I had let you down
In many ways
Forgive me
For the dark moments
When I couldn’t see
Lost my sense of us
But you will always be
A part of me
A part which had never let you go…

A bond forms
Where there is doubt
Uncertainty grows
Where there is understanding
Empathy develops
Where there is struggle
Knowledge deepens
Where there is faith
Calmness sets in
Where there is animosity
Anger arises
Where there is life
Everything happens
Where there is love
Everything makes sense…

Gave me wings
Made me fly
Showed me a journey
I saw only the best in me
Healing of a distant past
Strength for today’s struggles
Hopes for a tomorrow
When it is said
Angels do roam the earth
How can I deny this
When I have come to know you…

are we here
Where
we are now
How
did it end this way
When
we felt the love so intense
What
killed the hopes and passion
Which
we once so believed in…

In a distant
Is the nearness
Of you
Sense
Of a belonging
With tunes
Of an old lullaby
Soothing
As it is
A song
Of intertwined souls
Gathered
By the weeping meadows
On an endless road

Seem dreadful and long
When hopes
Are out of reach
When dreams
Appear like nightmares
When everyone
Just passes on by
When sadness
Becomes the companion
When nothing
Makes sense anymore
Remember
I feel
I care
I love

I find refuge
To heal
My heart’s wounds
In silence
I find joy
To remember
My heart’s delights
In silence
I find the need
To know
My heart’s desire
In silence
I will recover and learn
In silence
I will know my strengths and weaknesses
If I were true
In silence…

I can’t know your pain
But I will stand by you
I can’t feel your fear
But I will fight with you
I can’t phantom your demons
But I will pray for you
I can’t imagine your hopelessness
But I will not give up on you
I can’t turn back time
But I will do my very best
To make you fly one day…

I hear myself
Whispering
A sweet nothing
In your ears
Many a time
I feel myself
Holding your hands
In mine
Many a time
I sense
Your presence around me
Many a time
I tell myself
If only
You knew
my deepest journeys
With you…
If only…

Weren’t we meant to fly
To soar the skies
Weren’t we meant to expand
On life and its limitless boundaries
Weren’t we meant to trust
The essence of ourselves
Weren’t we meant to love
The beings so dear to us
Weren’t we meant to sing
The melodies of a forever
Weren’t we meant…
So why aren’t we…

With her deep red tones
Despite the winter
She stands in awe
Among the vast of glistening white
Because she knows
Spring will come again
And she will bloom
In her time
When all stars are lined…

A sky full of stars
An empty mind
A restless soul
An urge to slumber
An annoying state of wakefulness
A resignation in tiredness
A rejoice in ‘could be worse’
…
…
…
A sense of day
A reluctance to awake

I feel I could
Expand my being
Beyond the vast skies
Spread my wings and fly
With the birds in migration
Sing from dusk to dawn
In synchronicity with mockingbirds
Ride on the high waves
With the wind beneath my face
Touch every vibration
With all my senses…
So high…

Cut me deep
Your violence
Shakes my fragile heart
As I lay bleeding
You shrug your shoulders
And spit at my wounds
The heavens cried
Tears of pain
The soothing rain
beats upon my raw flesh
Numb as I smell its warmth
Embracing me in love

Stillness
When time
Stands
The mind
Slumbers
The voices
Silent
The motions
Slide
The only
Song
One hears
Sobs
…lub dub…

With your death
Flows an understanding
Of what humanity is about
With your absence
Comes a need for awareness
Of what we live for
With your vision
Is a never-ending hope
for the people at the mercy of fate

Gazing at the candle light
A warmth
Carrying all fond memories of you
A light
Promising of angels and more
A thought
Expanding across oceans and valleys
A love
Lasting as long as the sun still shines
And stars still burn

A standstill
It must sense
That I miss your presence
I was told
That the past, present and future
Are just one
Now I understand
As I thought of you
I think of home…

That lingers around me
Your presence
That invisible energy I feel
The sound of your voice
Lost in my mind
As I try to make sense
What have you just said?
It’s the here and there
Now and then
As if time and place had been
Forever and yet…

I had sought for you
As I walked
Blind in my mind
Sight in my heart
An untrodden path
Armed with hope
Wrapped in faith
When light came
I flew with the birds
Sang their songs
When darkness fell
I slowed down
Fears found me
And out from the heavens
Stars came my way
If only I would look up…

Lies a sleepless soul
In search of slumber
Its restless mind
Its unsettled heart
Stabbed in battle
In the silence
Is a deafening tune
A tune so familiar
If the heavens could speak
Would it be as such
A soothing lullaby
A song of eternal rest

An odd time
The lonesome thoughts
Of many fleeting moments
As one lays and ponders
All the love and pain felt
All the journeys made
All the wishes ever
All the prayers said
Roll into a bundle
Of emotions
Of happiness and tears
Wrap in cocoon
A life excursion
And the next journey begins…

Of the sun
That we create shadows
In the pursuit of happiness
That we taste sorrow
In the case of love
That we understand pain

I will find you
Perhaps a wish
To pursue
This part of me
A pandora’s jar
Looking for hope
Despite all odds
Knowing true love
Will triumphant
And nothing else
Would matter…

With all its shine
Makes everything grow
Is love like the moon?
With its soft glow
Makes us retreat in ourselves
Is love like the stars?
With its little twinkles
Light up our dark moments
Is love like the vast heavens?
With its ever endless reach
Wrap us in protection
Is love like you?
With your presence
Melts the cold und warms the heart…

On a day
With many past memories
Time flies
Memories accumulate
By chance
Our paths might have crossed
By choice
Our hearts hold on
By will
Our steps overlap

An evil seed
Your innocent face
A devious intent
Your contentious words
An inability for empathy
Your need for attention
An endless drain
Your pointing finger
A fault to your faults
Your existence
A pain to truth

A sad day
A sadness
Like no other
A void
Filled with unreachable hurt
No more butterflies
Only creeps
In my stomach
Can’t tell
How or what
When or why
Anymore
It’s just despair
…

Goes wild
In darkness
No end
No boundaries
The heart
Goes searching
For light
A reason
A purpose
Where is that twinkle
That star
That belongs to you
We are born of stars
And there is one
For each one of us
And for you too
You will find it
With the light of other stars
guiding your search

On the wait
Of a morning kiss
The light of life
The love of living
Hopeful is the heart
A joyful tune
A wakeful moment
Is it a dream
Coming to fruition?

A thousand nights
Laughed
Another thousand nights
Just to believe
There is hope
of sweeter days and peaceful nights
For the suffering souls
With weary hearts
Rest in love
Knowing you are
And will not be
Alone…

is when the heart cries
Of the many whys
Still untold
Still unknown
Pain
is when the heart hopes
In search of a light
To be discovered
To be found
Pain
is when the heart seeks
A reunion
An acceptance
Of a life to live
Of a life to be lived

I still remember the chills
When I first met you
It wasn’t snowing
Or raining
But that moment froze
Why or how
Is probably hidden somewhere out there
Where ancient stories are resting
And I am searching for it
Relentlessly…
For it has become my heart-warmer

Crystals hanging
Angel lights shining
Laughter ringing
Cookies baking
Carols singing
All now in the past
November bright days
Sanity breaking
Joy drowning
Heart chilling
Trauma glowing
Sorrow seeping
Nights howling
To the devil in disguise
Wolf in sheep armour
How do you sleep?

The path is unseen
Don’t panic
Just tread on
What comes will come
Breathe and refocus
With eyes closed
A complete unison
In your self
A miracle is yet to happen
Here or there
Within darkness
There is clarity in light

Somewhere
In my struggles
Trying to make sense
Of all that I was made to receive
I was hiding
In deep waters
I was burying my heart
Where no one could reach
With tears
That formed oceans of sorrow
And then you appeared
With your open arms
And unconditional love
You took me as I was one of you
Gave me a home
And courage to tread on…

You are the hope
The moment I open my eyes in the morning
All possibilities that await me
To create a better day ahead
Good morning Time
You are my reminder
How blessed and beautiful
Life has been to me
Despite the many stones in my path
Good morning Time
You are a testament
To all the memories inked in my heart
With all whom my path have crossed
In good and odd ways